It’s not that serious. It’s not that exciting, or that exhilarating, or that amazing. Some things can wait. Some things don’t need to be experienced. You didn’t “need” to learn that truth first-hand. It’s okay to say “No” and stand firm on your choice to not engage. Curiosity can lead to pain.
Especially when satisfying it causes you to drop your shield, and your values. Make sure you’re taking care of you first, and recognize how satisfying this curiosity could effect you physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, now….and later…. Curiosity can lead to pain…and honestly, it’s just not worth it….